I wrote a long post last night about what our life has been like here and Blogger swallowed it up. I usually save things when I start writing a lot, but my method was flawed. Grrrr.

I'm doing a sort of mental recap because our time here is probably coming to an end. We sent a contract and a deposit to our attorney yesterday. We still have inspections, appraisals and mortgage approval ahead of us, so there's plenty that could go wrong, but we're feeling pretty positive. I'll start gushing about it when it looks a little more secure.

One thing that I didn't count on when we came here was how hard it would be for Aidan. The first month or so, his cousin was here who is the same age as him and he was thrilled but since she left he's been so lonely and is desperate to play with other kids. We go to the park and he connects with a kid about half of the time and has a great time. Sometimes he latches onto a nice dad and follows him around, which can be weird. Sometimes a kid is mean to him and he becomes withdrawn. Often the kids are already with friends or siblings and are simply unfriendly. He has a new tactic lately of bringing a few toys to the playground. I've been impressed by his ingenuity - it works like a charm. There is a heavily scheduled four-year old next door that is not readily available for spontaneous play, which just blows my mind and frustrates the hell out of Aidan. Probably if I called his mom and scheduled playdates we'd see him more often but he lives next door for christ-sakes.

It's not just that he's lonely, but he's also been troubled by the fact that we don't know where we are going to be living. I had no idea he'd be so conscious of our predicament. He drew a picture yesterday and told me that it was an old house that we were going to move into but that Pop couldn't get it and that he was sad. Maybe that's why he doesn't like old houses, he thinks they are heartbreakers.

It's been so nice having Steve here all day every day. He took a job this week and I'm realizing how spoiled I have been. Even though he's working when he is here, there are lots of opportunities for him to take a break and spend a few minutes with Aidan or to let Aidan "help" him. Yesterday was his first day and I was exhausted by the end of it - but how could I complain to him, when he's doing manual labor all day - so I made dinner instead, which I often can't do when he's working on the kitchen.